Just stuff

So i am at work today, and apparently we're going to have actual winter weather here. My dad called me to make sure i had enough wood for the fire, and i guess i can heat soup on it if the power goes out. Thank goodness for pot-bellied stoves!

i have no idea if we'll get as bad as they will, since they are a couple of hours north of here. i do know that the north part of our state is really making drastic preparations, and are expecting a severe winter storm. i know others think it is funny that we southerners "freak out" about snow, but since we experience it so rarely, it IS a big deal! And of course we don't know "how to drive" in snow, and we get silly when we just watch it falling. We love snow - lol.

But this is more than snow, from what i understand. It is going to have ice as well, which wreaks havoc on power lines and such, which is the main reason for the preparations of having wood, etc. And of course, we're concerned about our clients as well. Two of my clients have electric heat with no alternative heat source, but one has family very close by so i am not worried about her. The other client, on the other hand, may or may not have a place to go, since her daughter lives 2 hours away. We'll see what happens though.

Maybe, if it DOES snow, i can take pics and put them on here, non-identifying ones of course, if Padrone approves. We'll see. It would probably make some of you laugh that we get so excited about the snow you may see in photos here though - lol.

Anyway, i am substituting again tomorrow, and grateful for the opportunity. i had to say no one day last week, and i hated to, but there was no one to work for me in the client's home so i had no choice.

i registered for a couple more classes this semester. One will be extremely easy, since i have to retake English 102, and apparently there are no more Special Ed classes that i can take without taking some sort of technology literacy test or something. i think i'm just going to take the GRE and go ahead and start the Masters program next fall at the University of Alabama. It's a hybrid program - mostly online but with a weekend a month or so that is required to be on campus. i can do that, but i'm not totally sure if i can do it and work as a teacher too...BUT if i have taken my GRE, i'll be ready to begin classes in any Masters program. i would be taking graduate classes now if i had already taken it. i know, i know.

i know y'all have to get so bored with my life - lol.

On the relationship front, i think Padrone and i are both kind of ready for some intimacy. Due to circumstances on both sides of the ocean, our privacy has been pretty well eliminated lately. It has tended to make each of us kind of long for more, and so we're being a little creative and coming up with ways to regain a level of privacy. I miss him, y'all. i miss the intimacy of just talking with him without worrying about being overheard - even if we're only saying innocuous things. It's hard when we can't, but we have been together for so long that it doesn't affect our relationship as it would if we were still beginning and trying to make it work. Now we know we work, and what we're doing is more a case of biding our time until we are more free again.

i love him with all my heart. This man believes in me more than anyone ever has in my entire life, and it is because of HIM that i begin to believe in myself as well. i would still be working a dead end, low wage job if Padrone had not encouraged, supported, and eventually required me to research options and actually DO something with my life. And i actually CAN be someone! i can have a life i see others living. i can succeed in jobs that are challenging. i really CAN.

But i never would have believed that if he hadn't, using all the patience he is so famous for, shown me how he sees me, and done it in ways that were so natural that they couldn't have been contrived. i haven't been fed a line or manipulated, i have simply been helped to gain a level of confidence that i would never have attained if it weren't for him. And i like feeling confident about my ability to succeed in life, not just in my ability to be a good submissive to him.

Padrone, sometimes i try to imagine where i would be if you weren't in my life, and it is always a dark, dreary place of existence. You have brought me to life. You have opened doors in my heart and mind that only you can ever know about. Your flower is opening under the tender care you provide her, and Padrone....she is learning to feel as confident and as strong as a rose that blooms in winter. Thank you, my Owner. i adore you.