Mighty Morphin' Power....Relationship?

For those of you who may not have a clue what the Power Rangers are, or their show "Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers!", my apologies for the incomprehensible title.

For those who can move beyond the title....well, you get a gold star!

Anyway....

Our relationship has been going through some changes recently, as we have each been changing. Sometimes it is difficult to recognize true change in one's needs and desires when it can be attributed to other factors and seem like a temporary shift. And this is especially true when the feelings have risen and fallen in the past, when they seem a bit cyclical i guess.

So when Padrone changed my rules, he did so for a very, very wonderful reason. The problem is that i had no clue what that reason was, so it seemed to me as if he was....decreasing his control in my life. Now, realistically, that would not be an issue in and of itself because of so many things that i do that he controls, and also because he has the authority to control what and as he wishes. But these things were things he had always, in the past, indicated that he enjoyed that i did for him.

So i had no idea why, and he couldn't understand my reaction, and since he thought something negative and i also thought something negative, it turned into a major, major issue. Things were said that were only half-formed thoughts, giving inaccurate impressions, but we weren't in a place to even know ourselves that we weren't sure of what we were thinking and/or feeling. But we eventually patched the hole in the relationship and limped along until we had an opportunity - time, energy, and motivation - to discuss it in depth.

That was yesterday morning. And after that conversation .....

We are stronger than ever. We are most definitely on the same page now. We value each other so much, and the intimacy that such emotion creates is what Padrone has realized he needs more than any other type of thing from me. And i have kind of always been that way, although of course we will still need the physical expressions of D/s. The emotional aspects have always been far more important to me.

I am looking for ways to show Padrone more and more just how much he is with me. Often i will take pics with my phone of little things...honeysuckles blooming on the vines lining my driveway...the overwhelming amount of food at church homecoming the other day....the puppies... me in my new contacts....and i think that is a good way to begin. I text every hour, and i am trying to include more and more details when i do text. The communication is what is vital, and it is finding new ways to do so that will enhance and increase our intimacy.

i tell Padrone so much minutae of my life, and yet he says he loves it. i even have him saying "Roll Tide" now and then! (and *i* love *that!)

And so it seems as if our relationship is morphing, shifting its focus onto what we each need so deeply, to give ourselves the opportunity to express it as fully as possible.

Padrone, i have oversimplified here, i know, but i have never been one to give elaborate details about our life together in this blog. You and i both know what we need, no matter what we call it, and i am so grateful for what we have. Being able to talk with you as we did yesterday is a precious gift, Padrone, and i will never take it for granted.

i love you, my wonderful, wonderful Padrone.