a beginning in the middle

Starting anything is always the most difficult part, for me at least. And so, i will not begin anything, i will merely type and let the words flow as they will, editing as needed.

i do think i need to give a reason behind this particular blog. i am in a long distance relationship with my Master. We have a public life in a channel in IRC, and i get many questions about the realities of this kind of relationship from other submissives. i still would never have thought of sharing them publicly, except Master (who i call Padrone, as He is Italian) had the idea of a website. That struck me as a wonderful idea, but a blog....i guess it is a way for me to type things as i think them.

We have lately had many conversations about the realities of a long distance relationship, and those are the things that i would like to share from my own experiences, and hopefully hear from others as well. But i won't go back and talk about who i am or why i do what i do, just to do it. i will probably share those things, because that *is* part of who i am, but i won't make a conscious choice to do so.

What is important is that i belong to Him, in ways that i never dreamed possible. And we are both surprised sometimes by how deep our relationship is, how strong the bonds of D/s and ownership are. i always think "this is it, there is nothing more that we can do, being this far apart." - and yet there is always something else. It grows and deepens naturally. We don't force things, we merely recognize our own feelings, and communicate them with each other. When the time is right for ...... changes...... they happen.

Just like this blog.