Post surgery

Alright, another update.

i'm still healing. i'm still in a sling, even though the stitches are out. The movement, the range of motion, is very limited still, which i expected. i take the sling off now and then to type, usually when Padrone is online in the evenings, so i don't have to one-handed type all the time. i start physical therapy on Monday, and i go 3 times a week for 4 weeks, until i go back to the doctor. i go back to work next week, i'm getting out of the sling, except if i need it, i can use it. The first few shifts will probably be pretty difficult.

The biggest frustrations outside my relationship with Padrone? Using the bathroom, not being able to open bottles, having to get up if i need something off the table to the right hand side of my chair, and sleeping in the recliner. It's hard not being able to even pull my pants up alone. Styling my hair is impossible, and makeup with my left hand looks dreadful, so my daughter has been my stylist lately. Yes, it is as scary as it sounds. Not being able to drive myself has also been frustrating. Those are a few of the frustrations.

In our relationship, this surgery and all its ..... need for compromise and downright lifting of restrictions has come at the exact wrong moment. i am being punished, and all the emotions of surgery and the aftermath have compounded that dramatically. So all of it probably lasted longer than it might have otherwise.

And the PT hasn't even begun yet. i have been told that it will take 12 weeks before the shoulder itself is completely healed, and that it will be 4-6 months for me to regain full strength and range of motion afterwards. So it will be a long term thing, but worth it in the long run i'm sure. i have honestly regretted having it done a few times since April 20.

So, that's where it stands now. Padrone has been wonderful through this, far more wonderful than i deserve, but i am so humbly proud that He loves to take care of me as much as He possibly can from so far away. We are both thinking of ways that express the D/s...alternates to what we have done for so long, but which give us both some relief. Things are slowly changing back to normal. And i know that all of what happened hasn't been easy on Him either, but i tend to forget that at times when i dwell on what i am going through myself.

Padrone, thank You for all You have done for me through all this situation, and for all You will still have to put up with until things are back to normal for us. i am so blessed, so lucky, to belong to You.

*kiss*