Being Yours

i've thought a lot today about what it means to be Your slave, Padrone. Is it simply a role i play, doing tasks and obeying rules, with some amazingly incredible kinky sex thrown in to boot? We both know it is more than that, but what, exactly, does it mean to me to be Yours?

i mean, i say it all the time...i'm Yours. i'm proud to be Yours. i'm blessed to be Yours. i'm so lucky to be Yours.

What it means is nowhere near simple. But yet it is. i belong to You, as truly as if You had paid for me, only this is probably a lot more meaningful because i belong to You, every day, by my own choice.

i know that being Your slave is more than a few keystrokes on a keyboard. i know that being Your slave means far more than obeying rules, or being punished for disobeying. i know that being Your slave is safe, secure, even if the future is never predictable. i know that being Your slave is ... indescribable, but i will try ... here are some things that being Yours means to me:

i serve You, Padrone. i would do more if it were possible, and i always look for ways to serve You better and more deeply. i love to serve the Master who loves my service, who appreciates it and values it, therefore valuing me as His slave. i serve You in so many more ways than can be conveyed in this medium, and i serve You with many things here where i live that You control from across the ocean. This service is real and true, and is a testament to You and the person that You are, i honestly believe.

i strive to please You in so many ways. i have learned so much about You, Your likes and dislikes, Your preferences in so many things. i want to get to know You better, in little ways and big ones, so that i may be more and more pleasing to You.

i am learning and growing as a person and as a slave. i am pleased that You are the first one who acknowledged the difference. i am honored that You think of me as woman, rather than as girl. And the fact that You enjoy watching my growth and development makes me try even harder to be a better woman, mother, slave.

i am laughing more. You are fun, Padrone. i love to laugh with You, and to laugh because of the pure contentment that being Yours brings into my life. Yes, it enables me to feel more confident, to worry less (yes, i *did* say that!), and to feel more secure. All of those things help me to be more able to see the little joys and pleasures around me, rather than focusing inside.

i am finally, finally, finally able to believe....in myself....in You...in D/s...in love.

That is the biggest, most memorable, most drastic change that being Yours has had on my life. i finally believe that i deserve You.

And yes, i do still consider myself the luckiest slave on earth. i'm Yours.